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Thursday, February 24, 2005

heyhey...
these few days lot have been going on lah..
both good and bad..
mostly, bad.. haiz..
lots to say.. too lazy liao..
damn
i reli hate my life..
so meaningles..
live for wat?
wats the aim of life?
sigh.. i wan to die!
can someone kill mi now?
i failed a maths badly..
2nd lowest in class..
if this carries on..
i will have to make a decision..
sighh.. sigh.. sighh..
irritated by u guys!

stayed back for tml thingy, plus PW..
PW done liao.. so relieved..
credits goes to lao po, sherk, bird..
yeaps yeaps.. (:
if it werent for them.. i dunno how lah..
when going back home, it rained..
i strolled in the rain.. strolled..
enjoying the rain.. depressed..
reached home, stoned in air con room a while..
wondering why i'm not sickk..
muz be not long enuf.. sigh..
cried in sch again..
been crying alot hoh lately..
too much tears.. cant help it..
gtg liao.. i'm tired..
how i wish i could sleep and never wake up anymore..
hais.. tml cross country.. hope i can run..
i wan to.. motivate mi pls..
i've been walking for past 2 years..
so, tml muz run.. kaes.. byee..

~i wan to have a good cryy!~

`pricilia*-
9:44 PM

Monday, February 21, 2005

heyhey... yeaterdat was furnie!
morning tuition all this lahh..
every week standard de loh..
aniwae, lao po sms mi..
she got sixth sense wor!
yupp yupp.. luv my lao po.. ((:

kaes.. at nite, went nite studyy..
reli nite studyy loh..
supposed to meet at 7:30 de loh..
then in the end they call ealier..
then i cant find them somemore..
saw lion lah.. then i missed lao pa loh..
i actually walked pass him and we didn't see each other loh!! how dumb..
haha.. yah.. so, we did maths..
so so so furnie loh..
lots of things happen lahh..
yah.. kept laughing..
but not bad lah..
think i learn something..
actually, i reli learn something loh..
heehee.. thx lion and lao pa..
lion, our tuition teacher very fierce..
lol.. so lame.. i noe..

then went back that time waiting for taxi loh..
then lao pa waited with mi..
we ended up walking and walking..
walk till lao pa house there loh,
still no taxi.. asshole one leh..
then finally got on one..
yeaps.. reach home quite lah liao..
so tiring..

then today.. a maths test.. )):
e maths get back liao.. )):
actually got a mark close to lion one loh..
then she add 2 marks!
so we didn't get same marks this time..
lion pang seh! lol.. nvm..
fail mah.. everytime also fail..
no big deal.. never pass before loh..
haiz.. who cares liao lah..
hopeless liao.. i give up!
yah.. went out after sch..
nth much le..
got another thing happen lah..
i'm too lazy to say..
plus its so late.. i still got hw..

yuppz, last thing..
lao pa made mi cry loh..
haha.. not his fault aniwae..
and, sherk and bird bullied mi loh..
now i think someone got the wrong idea liao..
i'm so dead.. he damn funny loh..
i will remember the sentence he say:
"i help u carry books doesn't mean u can do this to mi loh.."
haha.. i never say anything loh.. lol..
i say wrong things mah..
slip off my tongue..
so stupid lah his reaction..
juz scared he'll be angry..
yahh.. he didn't reply mi loh..
all sherk and bird faults!
haha.. bully arhh... help....

~i feel so dumb!~

`pricilia*-
10:25 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

hey... i'm here.. before i got lazyy..
i am lahh.. haha..
before i forget anyhting lahh..
lets see.. mi not in good mood rite?
yahh.. thurs was fun!
i went crazyy.. enjoyed myself..
aniwae, after sch supposed to go to the history thingy..
but then hoh, they cant find the museum or something lahh..
damn dumb loh.. the teachers sux..
then went back sch in the end..
then lao pa came to my house..
put books.. then went back sch to go amk..
meet jo there.. then took taxi to the hotel..
for angels's party.. yeaps..
mi, lao pa, jo and ren..
reached there, went up to the room..

the room very small..
heard that its for couples..
and u noe wat?
the bathroom was like translucnet loh..
u bathe inside, outside can see de..
haha.. lao pa wanted to bathe loh..
but he changed his mind in the end..
haha.. then the bed angela herself havent lie before one loh.. so neat..
then mi and lao pa jumped on it..
so fun! juz boom! on the bed.. haha.. nice..
ren did somersault and almost hit the lamp..
then angela and her fren go buy things..
left 4 of us in the room.. wat we did?
squeeze onto the bed..
4 pillows, one each.. we watch tv..
lame rite? haha.. it was fun loh..
all of us was under the covers.. haha..
then hoh, there were flowers petals on the bed lah.. which will stain the bed..
then i suddenly saw red red de..
and something stupid happened lah..
toopid lao pa, go tell others somemore..
make mi so malu.. haha.. its the petals lah..
not mi.. lol.. kaes, enuf crap lah..
u guys dun understand aniwae..

then we ate.. then stayed a while..
play cards.. fun sia.. i forget abt evrything..
juz enjoying myself..
then it was already 10 plus..
so, we went home lah..
more ppl came after us too..
yeaps.. thats wat happened on thrus lah..
damn fun can? finally i dun look troubled..
but wat now? back to normal??

then yesterdayy, dm..
took care of sec ones since yeeling not there..
they hoh, aiyah.. i've got nth to say..
i very jing zhang okayy..
yuppz.. so scary loh..
imagine taking the sec ones alone..
but jen came to help mi in the end.. ((:
but, the seniors came and let them take over..

did first aid.. mi and jen slacked in the room..
we were drawing on the paper loh..
haha.. draw and draw..
then got meeting.. sighh.. nvm..
then went to eat.. then went home..
thats all.. then now abt todayy..

today went to er zi b'dae.. haha..
had fun too lahh..
we went to catch fish!
went into the pond too u noe!
imagine all the slimy stuff..
haha.. but fun lahh..
at first, i didn't caught any fish..
when i finally catch one,
i was like screaming and screaming..
haha.. reli finally loh..
the rest caught 3 or 4 liao loh..
i havent even caught one..
haha.. got the chen jiu gan..
clap for mi everyone! lame lahh
haha.. then cut cake all this..
then we lie on the grass, ants come!

haha.. i'm lazyy to continue..
yapz.. thats all ba..
see you guys next time ba..
byee..

~cheering up~

`pricilia*-
9:26 PM

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

argh!!! i seriously feel like killing myself now!
can i? pls? haiz..
sick and tired of my life..
full of up and downs which i dun wan to experience..
i noe its part of life, but isn't mine way too much?
juz end it.. please.. -troubled-

yesterday sux.. somehting happened in sch..
stupid one loh.. paiseh like hell..
thnx to estee, shanbei and agnes.. esp, estee..
yeaps.. sian.. at home, he come tok to mi abt her..
he keep asking mi to ask... i didn't wan to..
i cant face the truth.. i'm scared..
then this morning, she was waiting for mi..
she took the initiative.. i was shocked?
i didn't noe wat to do.. mind spinning fast..
all i can think of is i keep saying my a maths havent do..
yeaps.. aniwae.. truth is out..
i'm supposed to ask her questions abt wat i doubt..
so, wat i doubt? haiz..
i doubt lots of things.. even so, do i dare to ask?
haiz.. sad lah.. fuckk.. why do i even give a damn?
it shouldn't affect mi.. or rather,
wat for think so much? haiz..
he is ignoring mi now.. arghh..
how nice of him rite? fuckkk lah..

cried 3 times today.. twice in sch..
crybaby rite? once when finish running,
another one after sch, at hall.. seeing him..
my god.. gotta stop myself from crying..
can't help it.. dunno why also..
not bcoz she explain to mi leh..
its juz by looking at him..
haha.. aint i mad?
yes, i noe i am..
someone wake my senses up!!
arghh!!!!!!

maths test, fail for sure.. yeaps..
tml, field trip.. sighh.. with that class..
not gonna be happy i guess..
haiz.. i feel damn shitty loh..
why muz it happen to mi..?? hate it lah..
it has been 6 mths and 2 weeks liao..
i didn't noticed it lehh..
till someone reminded mi.. awww..
he blocked mi rite? dunno lah..
got the feeling he did.. aiyah, who cares?
nvm.. have to be cheerful in front of everyone..
gotta go cry into my pillow liao..
sun be surprised seeing mi tml with red eyes..
-sob sobs- lots of sobs.. :'(

~i hate u!~

`pricilia*-
10:20 PM

Monday, February 14, 2005

i'm here again.. haiz..
been reli in such a foul mood these few days for dunno wat reasons..
sighh.. i need a break..
CNY break is not enuf for mi..
i want more!!
haiz.. wat can i do? cry?

wat i did on sat?
went out with xinyi.. yeaps..
went town to shop for things..
yeaa.. then meet the guys at amk there..
see them play lan.. looks fun..
mi and xinyi took turns to tryy..
beam is nice enuf to let us tryy..
heehee.. i think i killed someone, dunno who..
but i'm usually the one got killed..
by kor lahh.. never give mi chance to learn..
i play only, then he come and kill mi..
so bad rite? so, let beam play again..
seeing them is better..
meet him then go home loh..
yeahh.. nth muchh.. now sun..

morning keep listening to peirce workout song..
keep finding the beat.. try blending in..
some beat changes at diff song..
will keep listening now.. i have to..
i need inspiration to come up with steps..
anione?
sighh.. forget it.. its a responsibility..
shall get it done.. hopefully by next house prac..
tml have? some yes, some no..
haiz.. die die die..

kaes.. met them to eat pizza..
spilt to 2 groups.. bird, yvonne den mi, jowie
came to my house, put jelly and take cake box..
some sort of 'rushed' to bp since both of us wants to watch soccer badly..
yeaps.. reached there, they aren't playing..
cant sit, wearing skirt.. so, stood there with jo..
waited till the rest come, including sherk..
went to find val dae things again..
the more i see, the more i buy for more ppl..
bought for the soccer gang.. tho its not enuf..
i cant spend more mah.. yeaps..
went back bp, left the senior team..
disappointing..

quite happy tho yesterday juz being there..
was being rather mad.. i kept laughing almost non-stop..
imagine that.. crazy ger laughing like mad..
relieving of stress.. some sort.. cheering myself up..
haiz.. then went to yvonne's house, then to sherk..
then it was so late liao.. so, went to yvonne house..
by that time, 10 plus le i guess..
decided to stayover.. called home, she let!
overjoyed.. rarely she let mi do wat i wan juz like that..
so, we wrapped flowers till 1 plus.. took turns to bathe..
toked to lao pa till hp no batt.. charge through the nite..

woke up in the morning, yvon first.. i was so tired..
then asked her prepare herself..
then she woke mi up.. took taxi to my house..
my turn to prepare.. yeaps..
then head off to sch.. started giving out flowers..
then something happened abt the attendance..
shuai ge lah, be wat prefect.. leave the class alone..
then i dunno the list with mi.. so, never pass up to office by 8..
i was bloody scared loh.. gave it to miss tham..
yahh.. i dunno wat she do to it.. i'm scared..

gave out more flowers lahh.. got quite a few too..
wonder who got the most flowers.. yahh..
chem, it sux.. tears juz flow.. got back 4 papers today..
failed all, one juz nice pass.. i used to hack care..
today was different, i dunno why..
i was disappointed in myself.. i felt shattered..
i'm such a failure.. lose confidence in myself..
i was so so so so discouraged by chem..
haiz.. its over.. shouldn't be thinking over it..
everything sux lah..

something is affecting my studies..
but, how to get it away? sux sux sux..
i feel so evil.. how??
i dun wan things to be this wayy...
arghhhh!! hate this kind of feeling..
sob sob sob
reli feel like dyinggg...

~make mi back to normal~

`pricilia*-
9:20 PM

Friday, February 11, 2005

sigh sigh sigh.. haiz..
today sch was okayy i guess..
ppl pon sch lah... attandance today is 33/41..
not bad not bad.. expected more ppl to be absent..
guess my class still counted guai..
i wan to pon.. but, today 2 periods of maths..
i can kill myself for skipping any maths lessons..
sian.. tues still got test.. gonna fail AGAIN..
yahh.. i juz cant studyy.. nth went in..
haiz.. eng.. sian one loh..
was made to do journal on the spot..
coz i didn't do.. lazyy mah..
then geog.. ppt cannot open..
like wat the fuck? no one bothers..
minus marks then minus marks loh..
i no interest in studies le lah..
can anione push mi to work hard?
haiiiiiiiz.. hate my life.. so screwed up..
went to mayy's house.. then to j8..
watched i do i do.. waited for more than 1 hr..
saw 1e1 ppl.. played true or dare to kill time..
so sian.. finally time to go in..
so, we watched..
i laughed at some parts..
my heart ain't laughing tho..
haiz.. went home after that..
rushing for tuition.. yeaps.. thats all..
i'm feeling rather down.. influenced..
-suicidal thoughts- ain't that serious lah..

~out of my mind!~

`pricilia*-
9:23 PM

Thursday, February 10, 2005

lalala.. here i am.. -smilex-
for wat? i'm bored.. -.-
cny, everyone's out.. mi?
stuck at home..
ppl collecting ang paos,
i only got 2.. ): haha.. pathetic.
blame myself for not wanting to go back indo..
yeaps.. my bro is getting rich there.. lol..
have been slacking lots of home..
sleeping most of the time..
getting enuf rest before sch starts tml..
yeaps.. dun feel like going sch tml..
i'm still lazyy.. rahh~!
realised that i'm so broke now..
gotta save money again lahh..
till i think i've got enuf.. LOL..
when will ppl think the've got enuf?
i feel so so so so CRAP
can't blame mi, i'm too bored..
changed blogskin.. thx to sherk..
she found this skin and showed it to mi..
i used it coz she didn't wan to.. haha..
all i do now is eat, sleep, eat, sleep..
turning into a pig real soon..
losing confidence in myself..
izzit the start of depression?

~i wonder~

`pricilia*-
6:07 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

kaes... long time never blogg... tired lahh... yeaps... fri de dm hoh... quite fun lah... more fun than usual... we got to noe our buddies... i've got mayy's couzzie... haha... then learn abit of the TRIAGE? yeah... then footdrill... bird was ic of sec 3 till oic say change... no one wants to volunteer... and i was like in front, so, i juz step out loh... haha... then so fun lah... haha... daniel hoh... keep making the whole squad laugh loh... hahax... lame leh he... a few mins only, ask permission to adjust his attire... haha... so lamee loh... haha... then went to eat after that? i ate their chicken skin... haha... thx to those who donated the skin... LOL...

then sat... wat happened? oh yah... went ikea... then go here go there lah... haha.. played badminton... i lose all the way can? haha... lame shit... i dunno how to play lah... so long ago never playy... haha... then went home loh... damn tired... hahax... Then sun... which is yesterday... tuition in the morning... then get ready to go out... hahax... went town loh... pei him buy clothes... haha... saw hwee xiang senior... LOL... then i spend a lot of money buying my stuffz loh... i think i ended up buying more than him, then its he pei mi not i pei him liao... haha... so lamee lah... then yah... went home lah... haha...

Then today... sch was okayy... i actually rushed some hw yesterday nite... till around 1 plus? yeaa... i managed to pass up those hw i owe one loh... i'm so proud of myself... haha... now still got some lah... but i feel so much lighter with those hw already being passed up... haha... oh yah! my a maths... haha... got back paper liao.. lol... mi and lion have same marks again... haha... e and a maths mi and lion comparing who will get lower loh... then we got the same marks for BOTH! haha... see, we so erm... wats that word? i dunno lah... forget le... haha... a maths only got 5 loh... pathetic leh... 5/30... think lowest got 3... i got only 5?! haiz... forget it... i dun understand a maths... eh wrong, i should say i dun understand MATHS... haha... i've decided to concentrate more in class... ((: i finally noe how to do the a maths question!! on my own... i think its the first time i try to do on my own, and got it correct!! I wrote an encouragement for myself in the a maths notebook.. haha... then u noe wat? the next question i try, i'm stuck AGAIN... haha... i was not weak in maths last time loh... now leh, so PATHETIC lah...

Then after sch... slack here and there... then finish up my geog pro... then pass up... then see them train... 'play' with the bandages lahh... haha... OH YAH! I've got new phone... ((((: my mum didn't wan to buy for mi loh... its my mum's fren who bought it for mi... haha... yeahhh... then went out to eat with them after everything lah... then went mac to studyy lah... left mi and ting and lao pa... then ting went home... then left mi and lao pa... soemthing wrong happened to my phone lah... i almost cry loh... stupid one leh... reli scaryy loh.. imagine, new phone, then use one day, spoil liao... omg... i dunno wats wrong with the phone lah... in the end also ok itself... i was reli scared okayy!! haha... yeaps... mi and lao pa made a time-table... haha... we gonna exchnage books everyday.. make our bag lighter mah... haha... i scared lao pa didn't pass mi the book... like that i diee liao... haha... lao pa better bring... haha... k lah... i'm supeeeeer shagg now... wanna go try to do more hw...

i wanna be more hardworking... believe mi lah... haha... dun be like sherk! She dun believe i do my hw on my own!! humpf~! haha... oh yah... another thing... i've got a new nick... haha... thx to shuichengg... give mi usch a stupid nick loh.. haha... Have a DAMN funny story behind it... haha... hope they juz forget abt the nick lah hoh... haha... sherk gonna call mi that... haha... k lah... i'm tired... todays' entry not bad lah.. quite longg... haha... tml not gonna bring book.. i dun care... haha... yeaps... tml got plans liao... ((: yeah! haha... hope can wait till jowie come... haha... yah yah... haha... bye ppl! guess its tooo late to do hw liao... 12 plus le... haha... k lah... shall go to my dreamland... haha... byebye...!!!

~i'm excited abt tml!~

`pricilia*-
11:47 PM

Thursday, February 03, 2005

heyhey... sorry to mayy... my memory is failing mi... remembered wrong thing... it's his forfeit... not her's... yuppz... kaes... thats one thing...

another thing i'm blogging abt is todayy... got so worried in class abt the size thingyy... yeaps... but it fitted well i guess... ((: yea... thx! -sweeeeet-

last thing... i wanna say she sux... she made mi hate him too... FUCK... wonder how she influenced him in that wayy... FUCK her lah... idiot one loh... he spoiled my whole dayy... i'm supposed to be happy today... yet wat have he done? if it wasnt for his that toopid question, everything is alrite... after he asked that question, he say ask for fun... ask mi for THAT reason... told u that i dun wan to loh... arghh... hate u lah... dun force mi lahh... my mind is in such a way liao... u cant change my mind... my heart, i cant even control it myself... arghh... hate u lahh... i didn't tok to u for almost 1 week... things went on smoothly for mi... but today... u again... everytime also u one loh... haiz... i think i reveal too much here... i better stop... before the whole world noes wats going on... haiz... dun ask mi wat happened to mi... wont be in a good mood these few days... better dun offend mi... or i will flare up at YOU! esp u loh, stupid bitch!

`pricilia*-
10:07 PM

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

heyhey... here to continue previous entry... hahax... now tok abt poc nite... *cough cough* mayy arh, muz read till the end hoh... haha... kaes... i shall begin... LOL..

woke up quite late that day... i tot i'm gonna be late leh... but reached sch juz in time... haha... yeaps... then i so scared i forgot bring something loh... keep checking... haha... then board the bus... then reached prcs, quite bigg loh... then we fall in... then blah blah blah lahh... Then practice abit for performance... teach them... the guys so furnie... hahax... then change to full u... then the opening thing i think... saw him while going to the parade square... then ppl come telling mi he's here... LOL... so furnie... then my instructor better loh... come look for mi, then ask mi juz like that... with so many ppl falling in around mi... hahax... so paiseh... lol...

then after that, went to the hall for the presentation lahh... clap and scream like mad... hahax... then when it was his turn, they were like looking at mi? hahax... so lame... then we changed into the casual wear... then hoh, no one wear home clothes! peirce wants to wear nco shirt... lol... make mi choose clothes for nth... hahax... then went for dinner... peirce sit together... hahax... then took photo with him... (i look dumb in the photo!) haha... then went to hall for performance le loh... when laopards' turn, i got abit nervous looking at him and almost forgot my steps... haha... then singning, was okay i guess... but my voice sounded abit sore... lol...

then peirce have to go home first... )): coz we taking bus backk... as PEIRCE... see how united are we... hahax... then i forgot to tell leopard i'm leaving... didn't see them for the last time... wonder when can i see them again... hahax... i miss them so much! esp the lamee guys... lol... guess leopard wont be fun without them! instructors gave us photo frames, with our photos on it! hahax... so niceee... thankx dhabz and luther! hahax... lurve it so muchh... dhabz got one of the best instructor thingyy... -congrats!!- hahax... she looked shocked... lol... sean got best unit for leopard... he owe mi something! hahax... dhabz didn't bluff mi this time... yeaps... congrats to all those who got awards... yeaps!

here comes the main point of mi blogging abt poc... lol... mayy arh... *giving u THAT look* hahax... okayys... we palyed concentration in the bus... erm... 7 ppl izzit? haha... yeaps... then mayy lose lah... then got saboed by dunno who to do forfeit... hahax... then in the end also not she do de... all she have to do is stay there, let mi SUPPORT her head... lol... yeahh... something happen to them lahh... aiyoh... shant say much lah hoh... got 9 ppl saw anyway... hahax... they are so sweeeeeet rite? lolx... how does it feels mayy? when it touches ur cheeck... lol... kaes... shant tease u guys anymore... no offence kaes... better stop now... coz i still owe them MY forfeit, later they make mi do then die loh... haha...

yeaps... these few days was kind of busyy... went out a few times... yeaps... hahax... tml is comingg... lol... so fast yea? haha... have to stay back for the morning parade thingy i think... hahax... yeaps... haha... i'm excited abt tml... lol... i'm scared its not rite lehh... rahh... nvm... how big can it be rite? lol... k lahh... i wanna TRY to do some maths... lol... i failed maths and have to go for remedial every week... haha... i understand better than when she teach in class... haha... but mi and lion hoh... copy work from class, to copying work during remedial... copy all the way... haha... gonna fail again next test... lol... choy lah... i kinda like the remedial though... lol... for some reasons... haha... kaes... gtg le... byebye... i have to prepare something for tml first... shit lah... no time liao lah... lol... bye!

~thx everyone! ((: ~

`pricilia*-
8:22 PM

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