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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

jus came back from shuicheng's house and from tp.. tired.. tho all we did was gambling? lol.. i lost more than 10 bucks! they sang song too.. so sad i cant sing la.. esp chinese songs.. which remind mi of some ppl only.. HAHA! then played pool.. not bad le lah.. i got a couple of balls in.. which i noe is very pathetic already la.. yeaps.. then now back home.. and i'm not feeling my very best.. reli..

i think all i can say is i'm damn useless la!

I'M BEYOND HOPE!

Gotta change ma answering machine

Now that I'm alone

Cuz right now it says that we

Can't come to the phone

And I know it makes no sense

Cus you walked out the door

But it's the only way I hear your voice

Anymore

(It's ridiculous) It's been months for some reason I just

(Can't get over us) And I'm stronger than this

(Enough is enough) No more walking 'round with ma head down

I'm so over being blue Crying over you

(Chorus)

And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing

You were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender

I had That's marked July 15th

Cuz since there's no more you

There's no more anniversery

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you

And your memories

And now every song reminds me

Of what used to be

`pricilia*-
9:41 PM

Monday, January 30, 2006

okay.. its so boring can? being home when all ur frens are out visiting.. -pouts! today woke up at around 9 plus? then went to his brother's house.. for a while.. then go to dunno wat river hong bao.. so lame la.. then home.. and then was home all the while today! so nth much happened.. my com has been on for like more than 12 hrs already.. haha.. poor com.. i'm reli bored lah.. and i spotted 3 new nice songs! yippie! plus another one one some ppl friendster page.. and i dunno the song.. sighh.. oh ya. i found out the dnt website like finally.. but it didn't reli give mi alot of ideas.. in fact, nth came up to my mind lah.. so sad.. and i watched tv today! which is like RARE lah! haha.. watch some show on channel 5.. thanks to jere.. its nice.. yeaps.. tho i was quite lost at first.. haha.. alright..

actually.. i feel supppppper sad inside.. but i jus dunno wat.. maybe.. maybe i'm jus bad in expressing myself..

hais.. all these while i guess u've been the one.. but now, since u're gone.. wat can i do? jus one mistake and u're gone.. yeaps.. how dumb can a person get? i guess, thats it.. i tried toking.. but u keep ignoring.. wat else u wan mi to do? i cant blame anyone bout wat happened.. no one wants it to be like this.. but, maybe we shouldn't over-do things next time.. that is one lesson learnt on my 16th birthday.. wat a high price i had to pay.. it ruined it all..

`pricilia*-
11:59 PM

Sunday, January 29, 2006

okayys.. thanks to all the ppl who concerned abt mi.. i'm feeling better alreadyy.. yeaps.. since i'm feeling better, i shall blog abt somethign nice todayy.. i wanna thank everyone who celebrated my birthday with mi.. (: thanks for the first 5 ppl who wished mi.. lion honey, jere lao pa, shumay slipper partner, xiao qin les partner and eun DEAR! yeaps.. i counted the top 20 ppl who wished mi la.. haha.. okay.. thats lame.. thanks for all the prezzie i received this year.. i did go AWW! haha.. (=

yesterday went to lao pa house.. ~~to eat reunion dinner~~.. haha.. so funny.. helped him packed his cupboard abit.. yeaps.. how neat can it get when i dun even pack my own cupboard.. haha.. then stayed to watch vcd awhile.. then i got scolded so i go home.. haha.. yeaps.. today not much problem waking up early.. went to church alone.. the trip there felt sooo long.. reached there.. then went home alone after service loh.. poor mi spending first day of new year alone.. haha.. its okayy.. at least i got time to rest.. plus do my ppt.. anione house wants ppl to visit de, i can go.. haha.. yeasps.. i slept from 6 plus to 9 plus then to 11 plus.. haha.. alrights.. i guess i shall go now? okayy.. bye everyone.. happy chinese new year or watever u call it.. (=

anw.. i got bored and saw this.. haha.. i'll show u some of the things that are quite true la.. or i dun think its true de.. lol..
Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-minded individual, and you insist upon living your own life as you see fit, even if that means ignoring convention and tradition. In personal relationships you cannot be owned or possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself with another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give and take of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you can be enormously stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-to-one level. You have strong convictions and feelings about fairness and equality, and you try to live by your ideals, but your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another don't always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and needs. You probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender roles and "games".

Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities
Clear(?), objective, and realistic, you are unimpressed by exaggerated claims or promises. You insist upon being shown facts to back up any statement you hear, and your natural skepticism often borders on cynicism. You approach problems clearly and rationally and maintain your poise and objectivity even in the midst of critical situations. (haha!) Anyone seeking your advice is certain to get an unemotional and unbiased assessment of their situation(ahem!) , and you therefore make a good arbitrator or judge. You are thorough, conscientious, and disciplined in your thinking, and have an aptitude for business, organization, and administration. You are also a good strategist, and will plan and patiently follow a realistic course which will lead to your eventual success. Serious-minded and (not!) studious, you enjoy quiet time alone for thinking or reading.

`pricilia*-
11:12 PM

Friday, January 27, 2006

no matter how tired, sad or depressed i am, i tell myself to blog NOW! okayy.. these few days like that loh.. honey acc mi to buy ipod nano! then we go pierce earhole.. my 4th liao.. yeaps.. nth much le lah.. then today.. chinese new year celebration.. also my birthday i suppose? morning coem sch was welcomed by the b'dae song.. then the flower.. made mi carry whole day.. lucky not that big la.. then chirs made mi cry.. then i cried while doing amaths paper.. then cried during recess.. then after sch waited for them so long.. then i at first rushing de.. until i called.. then i noe.. haha.. ppl inviting 2 ppl going out together to go out together.. lame rite? do u get it? lol..

then after celebration, i cried.. then they played a while.. then waited for jere.. then come my house change.. then go watch movie loh.. haha.. wat did we watch? oh ya.. i not stupid 2.. yeaps.. then they went home.. while i go arcade.. alone.. yeap.. then went home loh.. waited for bus so long la.. haha.. now i'm so tired.. puffy eyes.. i think i'll sleep soon ba.. and i wan to let everyone noe.. that i'm not crying over anyone okay.. its jus a yearly thing that happens..

to the both of u: thank you for wat u guys had planned.. haha.. tho i dun reli know wats the purpose.. =X but thanks anyway.. sorry for my mood swings.. which made u all pei mi stand there for dunno how long.. lol.. THANK YOU!

to 7th kor: all i wan to say is.. please dun be mistaken hoh! and dun get the wrong idea yea?haha..

`pricilia*-
11:26 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

OVERALL, today sucked!

went to parliament house.. it was kinda boring.. yeaps.. then went home.. was asked to go eat dinner.. was reluctant of cos.. then got pissed off while eating.. no mood to eat liao.. sat there wait for them eat finish.. one of the ex peircean work there.. yeap.. oh ya.. saw a few ppl i noe.. didn't call out any.. cos of some VALID REASON.. yeaps.. bought a new pair of sandals.. then nth else le ba.. oh yah.. smell grass so bad can? HUMPF! !@#$%^&* =(((

smell grass are u reading this?

okayy.. hope there's nth on on fri..

i cancelled everything le hoh..

so, you better be free ar.. okay!

and you have to go take with mi!

no matter wat..

`pricilia*-
11:35 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

alright.. have to blog before one week! lol.. anw, yesterday poc.. sad sad lah.. i cired like twicE? haha.. thats abit dumb i noe.. then dhab tot i worried abt passing or failing.. so, i got to noe my results in advance =X yeaps.. then dance nite! it was overall fun i guess.. all of us have to find a partner lah.. all guys confirm have girl partner.. cos not enough guys ma.. i partner marcus.. yupps.. then have to walk in goign under that thigny together.. i suddenly forget the name.. haha.. then the programme abit lame in the middle.. those best watever.. i think the enthu part is only at the first game loh..

the first game i gave out alot of things lah.. slippers, 2 rubber bands, necklace, earings.. haha.. so funny loh.. then blah blah blah la.. finally got song for us to dance loh.. then mi and marcus started dancing.. others followed.. marcus so funny lah.. teaching mi how to dance.. haha.. then got exciting part also.. ahem ahem.. MM! (= then dance with sc too.. a while nia.. most of the songs are fast song.. then everyone was like jumping and jumping.. then i tried to join in loh.. so, wont think of sad stuffs.. haha.. yea.. took photo with one sexy guy! and one hot guy! lols.. okay.. thats lame.. haha..

then went to amk.. ate abit of supper at mos.. i drank corn soup loh.. yeaps.. then went arcade for a while.. then went home by taxi.. then bathe, online a while, then off to bed.. yeaps.. then today went church loh.. and i'm not feeling well actually.. got flu.. and my throat very pain.. then after church.. went to buy the things i wanted to buy last week de.. but no more! so, bought another thing instead.. haha.. then went home loh.. raining so heavily somemroe.. lucky when i reach, only drizzle abit.. so, walked in the drizzle.. haha.. i dun like FLU! cant i jus have FEVER instead? haha..

tml going parliament house.. sian la.. i wanted to buy my present tml de.. see how ba.. cos tues not free.. then thrus dunno going out anot.. then left wed.. wat if wed also not free? then no need buy liao meh? haha.. i dun care! i have to buy it by thrus! the birthday card also not done yet.. oh ya! i left my file in ms tham's homeroom! and my test tube in amaths class! i broke a test tube the moment its given to mi.. haha.. clumsy mi.. then bought one back, havent give back, then left it in maths class.. i bet ppl will go take liao loh.. sighh.. so careless rite? haha.. nvm.. i shall try my luck tml ba..

hmms.. lets see.. wat else to blog abt? i dunno liao la.. i shall go off first.. damn.. i now sleepy liao leh.. and its like not even 10:30 yet! haha.. i've been sleeping before 12 this week loh.. except last 2 nites ba.. yeaps.. so today must sleep before 12 again! haha.. alright.. good nite everyone.. byebye! see u tml.. -hopefully-

`pricilia*-
9:52 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

haha... i cried twice last nite.. close interval.. yeaps.. at least kor toked to mi yesterday! JUMPS FOR JOY! haha.. then toked to someone else.. he told mi lots of stuffs la.. and i cried.. cos he threw away my precious thing.. yeaps.. how could he la.. at least ask if i wan it back ma.. i dun even have the final copy of it.. haha.. nvm.. its okay.. then today sch was quite slack i must say? hmms.. chem.. stood up for not bringing notes.. chinese was drawing my name all over.. i'm making a b'dae card! haha.. then phy.. hmms.. did some experiment.. then 2 periods of dnt.. haha.. slacked also.. was distracted too.. looking at some ppl in class.. okay.. shall not say further..

went to RP.. was alright i guess.. then meet mel. j.. and her fren.. yeaps.. then ate at kfc loh.. then went popular a while, then went home.. haha.. actually, i'm too lazy to go into detail today.. and i'm feeling tired already.. OMG! i forgot to watch PROJECT RUNWAY! damn.. i only noe the winner is that guy.. and i didn't get to see their designs.. sighh.. forget it then.. i'm going off now.. ciao everyone..

`pricilia*-
10:44 PM

Sunday, January 15, 2006

okayy.. i got jealous after seeing someone's blogg..

how dumb? i even ~~cried~~ lah.. silly mi..

it jus hurts mi.. i miss him.. i need him..

one week alreadyyy.. where is HE?!

he ~~promised~~ he'll be there for mi de..

he jus made that promise on 1st jan 03:19:49!

and now is like only the 15th la.. oh wait!

it was from last week ma.. so, its on the 8th!

his promise jus lasted for abt a week? hais..

watever lah okay.. YOU always break ur promise!

okay.. today went church.. wasn't late.. (= wanted to cry badly de.. but no tears came out.. i slept a bit during service.. =X guilty mi.. then i ended up thinking abt my dnt lah.. got 3 designs.. not bad rite? thx to yesterday.. (: i started and continued.. heehee.. went lunch.. ate.. then slacked a while.. then discipling class.. it was okay todayy.. then joked around.. then went to see pasar malam awhile.. i wanted to buy quite a number of things! gotta bring lots of money next week~!! BUT DUN ROB MI OKAY! (: then ate dunno wat la.. very nice leh.. yum yum.. haha.. i wan to eat it again.. okay! NEXT WEEK!!

then went home loh.. so boring leh.. x(

oh ya! i came up with a birthday wishlist!

i'm thinking of 16 things! lol! here it goes..

its not according to any order ar.. haha..

1- silver stainless necklace chain (cos Nz de broke)

2- a thumbdrive? (i DUN need GIGANTIC space)

3- a mp3! ipod nano! (i'm buying that soon!)

4- a nice white earphones? (not reli actually)

5- a sweet personalized thingy for myself..

6- handmade stuffs! (REAL handmade not those u buy from handmade shop.. haha..)

7- hellokitty? (haha.. BIG cute one!)

8- something that will makes mi go AWW..

okay.. i think i'll stop at half la.. cant think liao..

lols.. oh oh oh! i noe wat i RELI RELI WANT!

i want that particular special someone! =D

alright.. i was jus kidding.. cos i noe i'll never get it.. haha.. so, why think abt it? it only gets mi depressing.. haha.. kaes.. i might add on to my wish list someday! haha.. i shall go off for now ba... byebye~!!

`pricilia*-
8:28 PM

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Got this test link from esther's blog.. haha..

You scored as Past.
Your depression is caused by your past. Something happened that you wish you could forget, but you can't. You think about it a lot, maybe are even haunted by nightmares of it, and wish you could have done something to change how things had turned out. You can't let go. The past consumes you.

Past - 81%
Love - 78%
Family - 72%
Lonliness - 63%
Friends - 63%
Stress - 47%
People - 44%
Death - 38%

yeaps.. this week have been TIRING.. i also dunno why.. then i was feeling super moody la.. but its not the ~~time of the month~~.. haha.. someone said it might be caused by the rain.. rain spoils my mood? not reli also la.. i love walking in the rain.. so, i dunno wats the cause of my sadness.. i think i going into depression la.. haha.. but i guess i'm feeling much better alreadyy.. tho someone else was feeling as moody as i am for the past few days.. haha.. okay.. he wont get to see this anyway.. lol..

okayys.. so.. yesterday.. cca's orientation.. was boring la.. tok to sec ones must have alot of patience ar.. its either they dun give a damn. jus smile smile when u tok to them.. or they keep saying "dun wan dun wan.." "i joining blah blah blah cca" then its like.. arrr.. like no use toking to them la.. got one ask a few questions abt sjab too.. then i so happy la.. then tok alot to her.. tho i dunno her name.. then at the end of it, i asked her "so, you're going to join sjab rite?" guess wat she say.. "oh.. no.. i not joining sjab.. i'm joining another cca" i was like.. act frenly and say "oh.. ic.. its alright then.. but do consider joining sjab okay.." then she walk away la! haiyo..

then walked around alot yesterday.. after that, went to TP kfc eat loh.. i was the slowest.. )= i saw 2 someone yestersday.. hahas.. then bought bread for my mum.. then went home with mel loh.. then reached home, bathe, online a while.. then sleep liao loh.. haha.. today leh.. went to meet the NZ ppl loh.. got a couple of us cannot make it la.. but at least we did some stuffs today.. yeaps.. saw many many pictures too.. nice! (= oh.. we ate canadian pizza for lunch too.. then quite late le.. some of us decided to go out eat dinner.. went to PS.. played arcade today! then ate bk.. haha.. then ended up walking round PS loh.. nth much also.. oh ya! i'm going for a mp3 hunt! and i think i found wat i wan to buy la.. i'll buy it within this 2 weeks! ((: and i'm gonna WRAP it.. haha.. okayys.. its MY SECRET! haha.. so lame lah.. then went home loh.. dunno how i ended up reaching home at 10 plus.. haha.. time flies real fast la.. then now so tired loh.. i guess i'll turn in soon ba.. heehee.. so.. see ya another time.. haha.. BYEBYE~!

`pricilia*-
11:58 PM

Friday, January 13, 2006

alright.. today is friday the 13th!

nth reli bad has happened to mi lah..
haha.. i'm not superticious also lah.. lol..
anw, i promise i'll blog more tml kaes?
cos cca orientation has worn mi out..
and have to wake up early tml..

in case i'm gonna be late again.. yeaps..

so, see u all online tml kaes.. bye for now..

`pricilia*-
11:08 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

heyheyy.. i'm so screwed lah.. my DNT!

i cant think of any ideas lahh.. its UNDONE!

hais.. okayys.. let mi jus say abt today..

morning was hetic! so dumb la.. hahas..

i woke up late.. and cant meet them at 9..

so msged bird saying i'll be late lah.. yupps..

then instead of rushing, wat did i do?

i went back to my dreamland lah.. haha..

then i only woke up when jowell called mi..

then i rushed down in a cabby.. yeaps..

then meet them at the mrt there loh..

then went to bugis.. then stayed there..

for quite some time loh.. not listening..

we were toking abt other things.. hahas..

then see the slaughter thingy loh.. so sad leh..

the goats so poor thing lahh.. hais.. )=

then went to bugis.. the girls shopped..

and i was so bored lah.. then go bugis street..

so squeezy loh.. i jus dun like bugis.. hurr!

then went to PS ARCADE~! like finally..

then played with one bear lahh.. fun fun!

ask the rest play, they also dun wan play those i normally play de ma..

then mi and one bear played ddr.. ((:

and PRICILIA WON! -claps + cheers!-

then we played para para too.. and..

PRICILIA WON again.. lols.. not bad ar..

but he beat mi in 2 other games also la..

then hit hit hit thingy.. and i dunno the other one..

then i left my phone with jowell!

he took it home la.. so went to meet him..

and get it back, then join the rest at j8..

then bougth A3 paper.. then go home loh..

wat a boring end of my dayy rite?

and, i'm not feeling very happy abt some stuffs..

cried on 8jan06 2:30am.. yeaps.. dunno why.. havent been toking to someone for quite sometime too.. hais.. and it jus makes mi feel so empty.. seeing him online.. and knowing that he's doing some other stuffs.. hais.. nvm.. i shall not feel depressed! this shouldn't be the way.. i must be cheerful! there's so many other ppl out there who can cheer mi up.. haha.. okok.. i'm feeling better.. yeaps.. out of my mind! alright.. i shall go sleep now.. and not think anymore.. byebye everyone..

`pricilia*-
11:38 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

heys.. gotta blog before everything piled up and i get lazy again.. haha.. before i say anything, i want to mention something IMPORTANT!! when i was in jakarta, i saw my kindergarden fren! i have not seen him for 11 years! he's so DAMN SHUAI la.. tall tall, tanned skin, wear specs, spike hair and he drives a car.. and he's also the one who drives his mum around.. how nice rite? okayy.. he's jus so cool la.. haha.. too bad ppl so shuai, sure got stead le la.. haha.. i sound so despo all of a sudden.. haha.. dun get mi wrong, i dun like him.. yeaps.. somemore, the sad thing is my mum doesn't let mi meet him for the second time! ARGHH! who noes i might get his e-mail or something.. haha.. ok.. PRIS STOP DREAMING! back to the main stuffs i wanna tok abt..

actually, i cant think of wat to say la.. i wanted to blog abt that shuai ge only.. haha.. oh yah.. i've been seeing word related to REJECTION! lols.. korkor jus said i reject eating dinner with him tonight.. another said i reject playing with him.. another said i reject other things.. haha.. i dun mean to reject.. but.. i dunno la.. okayy.. enuf of REJECTIONS.. i shall stop here.. haha.. tml holiday but going for the slaughter thingy.. yeaps.. need to wake up quite early loh.. haha.. alrights.. bye everyone.. (=

`pricilia*-
11:31 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

alright ppl.. i'm back to blogging..
after like 1month and 2 days! wow!
haha.. got miss mi ma? i bet u guys do! (:

kaes.. i''m gonna finish blogging abt the last part of my NZ trip now.. yes, i'm still at it.. haha..

okay.. so we stayed at kiwi paka..

not bad lah the place.. excpet the small rooms..

mi and eun in one room.. pathetic la..

2 beds squeezed in such a small room..

then its like no place to walk around that kind..

haha.. anyway.. its the most memorable part of the trip.. aww.. eun will noe why.. yupps..

okok.. shall not think abt it anymore!

then on the first nite we're there.. we check in and settled a while.. then we went to the restaurant there to have our dinner.. then it was quite dark already.. then mi, eun, jeriel and lincoln went for a walk? then it was so cold la.. yeaps.. (= -something to rem- haha.. then we went back.. slacked around.. yaya.. then jeriel hid something in our room! shall i say it out? hmms.. i shant then.. haha.. its our secret! then we sleep lah.. lol..

then the next day.. we went to dunno where lah.. and played alot.. they have things like, swoop, agrojet bungee and so on.. i did agrojet and swoop.. both with eun.. haha.. so fun! i love it so much! the swoop was funny! cos i was the one who is supposed to pull the thing ma.. then when we going up ar, i was telling eun, "wat if i dunno where to pull?" then i ask eun to trust mi and she trusted mi.. ((: then pulling that thing was scary okay.. jus when u pull, the thing will jus DROP! arghh we go! haha.. no warning de.. then took photos here and there loh.. yeaps.. then did shopping? yeaa.. i bought the least things i supposed.. eveyrone is like buying things for their family except for myself.. haha.. then we had dinner in some chinese restaurant la.. haha.. nice nice.. cos we havent eaten rice for such a long time.. haha.. then back to the kiwipaka loh.. then was slacking a while.. then 4 of us went inside the room lah.. then ate that thing.. haha.. jeriel was made to go up and down to get wat are needed.. haha.. then i ate a bit nia.. dun feel like eating already.. then i was lying on the bed loh.. yeaps.. okay.. something happened.. haha.. i wont say wat is it.. yeaps.. but dun anyhow think ppl.. u might be thinking of the wrong thing.. haha.. kaes.. guess thats all ba.. that was the warmest night i guess.. -nods-

then next day again.. time for us to go.. )= packed properly and went for breakfast.. then load our stuffs onto the bus.. then we went for ludge ride.. and watever else i forgot.. haha.. yah.. cable car to go up there.. haha.. oh wait! i forgot ludge ride is this 2nd say or first day liao la.. haha.. watever it is, we went to airport and fly back loh.. took a nice nap on the bus.. heehee.. then reached aiport.. got our boarding pass.. then went into the plane.. everyone changed seat la.. stupid stuffs happened in the plane too.. we barely take off, then mi and lincoln already have pillow fight! cos of some stupid stuffs.. haha.. then changed seat again.. then some embarrasing things happened too.. hais.. its okay.. its over already.. then every meal time, i pass most of my food to jeriel.. haha.. i need ppl to fed mi somemore.. lols.. okay.. thats lame.. then played cards.. with kcp guys.. yeaps.. we take turns.. haha.. then dunno why i ended up sitting with zhiwei.. then so funny la.. okay.. i dunno wat i typing alreadyy.. then reach s'pore.. so sadenning leh.. hais.. then last gathering.. hugged each other.. i cried.. a while nia.. then saw some of the gangie waiting for us.. so nice of them rite.. haha.. then went home loh.. so tired..

then my sleeping time changed alot la.. first few nights i sleep at around 8pm.. wake up 3am leh! so jia lat rite? then slowly slowly change back loh.. haha.. now back to the sleep 2am wake up 6am timing )= alright.. i'm done with NZ de la.. not gonna tok abt jakarta and xmas le.. too lazyy.. yeaps.. now, i will continue blogging le ba.. cos i realsied that staying at home not blogging is so sian la.. haha.. kk.. gtg for now.. byebyee.. remember to come back hoh.. =D

`pricilia*-
9:51 PM

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