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Thursday, April 28, 2005

sighh.. exams here..

shant think abt too many things..
gotta study.. sighh..

i'm sad.. yeaaa.. sad!

sighh.. he asked again?
like wat the hell?
arghh!! sticking to my ans..
dun wish to be disturb by all this for now..

i wanna do well!

i hope to win him*.. ((:

since he* motivated mi, i want to win him*

but doubt i could lah.. he's* so smart..

i lurve my motivator..

him* and only him*

lalalas.. i feel so bad towards the other him..

not my fault lahh..

fang bu xia jiu shi fang bu xia ma..

yeaps.. let mi continue feeling guilty loh..

arghh.. forget it.. i'm out of my mind!

~feels like cryyingg..~

`pricilia*-
10:08 PM

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

sighh.. everything not going well for mi..

nvm.. on fri.. after dm went to eat..

i didn't eat much.. no appetitte..

then someone came..

then go buy the tian yuan mi yu..

or watever it is lah.. yeaps..

then they keep saying loh..

then in the end they go buy.. haha..

then sat.. wanted to go out..

but no one wants.. so, forget it..

i went with my mum..

buy clothes, sch shoes.. yeaps..

then order cake.. ((:

then went home loh.. tired..

then i made a mid year target!

and exam timetable!

so rare for mi to do this kind of things de..

haha.. yeaps.. but i reli did wor.. ((:

sun.. went to yvon house do chinese..

then did a bit nia.. not much..

went lyna house a while..

tok abt pri sch lide.. so furnie..

the punishments all this crap lah..

then went mac.. eat loh.. haha..

very long never eat mac liao..

they keep going kfc ma.. lol..

then erm.. went home loh..

wanted to take cab.. but..

i have to save money yea.. sighh..

for some stupid things.. rahh~!!

then mon.. hms.. stayyed back to study..

didn't do much again loh..

was doing the sjab thing mah..

then yvon and lao pa came..

did even lesser lah.. lao pa's fault..

he made mi into playing mode..

haha.. yeaps.. then they went home..

i've gt depression.. haha..

thanks to somebody.. hais.. wateverr..

then todayy.. i'm so bloody sad during dnt..

got back test and yah..

results as usual loh.. saddening lah..

wanted to cry already loh..

but, i see no point crying over my results..

since i dun give a damn!

getting lesser interest in dnt liao..

have not been passing it since the 1st test..

wat is this huh?! haiz.. i'm dumb..

but after that, maths was good?

cos my marks for both marks improved!

improved by more than 100% loh..

so damn happy lah..!! whees.. (((:

after sch take cake all this lah..

yeaps.. then like that loh..

nth much lah.. wanted to do maths..

but i copied in the end..

and its like only a bit loh..

i have no mood to do hw jus now..

guess now also still dun have lah..

hais.. sad case rite?

went to watch soccer in the end lehh..

lol.. i had depression again..

so, i cried.. and i didn't get to hug bird!

lol.. i hug her, i can easily cry leh..

dunno why.. haha.. so yeaps..

went back canteen.. waited for eun..

pei her eat.. i ate too.. yeaps..

lao pa waited there too..

while the rest went home loh..

i have to get it clear now~!

its frens.. yeaps.. frens.. nth else..

it wont be anything else anymore..

so, i should get it clear by now..

dun brood over it pris.. hais..

~studies for now~

`pricilia*-
7:00 PM

Thursday, April 21, 2005

`sobs! huge huge sobs!

sighh.. shall tok bout wed first..

skipped dnt remedial..

went for the 2.4 run again..

was feeling rather sad too then..

cos i dunno something they noe..

hais.. forget it.. i'm jus thinking too much..

so ran with mayy.. a bit nia..

push her to run by asking her to chase after the 100 plus i was holding?? lol..

she naughty ger ar..

drink it halfway.. actually cannot de..

yeaps.. run finish, walk back loh..

anw, mi and bird was comparing guys..

hers and mine.. which is better?

but, its jus judging looks..

so wat if more votes vote for her?

looks only wat.. overall, mine will win!

haha.. that all started by some stupid stuff..

i feel dumb speaking up for him*

but, yeah.. its okayy.. haha.. lame..

then at nite was great!

someone called finally..

haha.. 2 days didn't tok le yah..

tot he forgotten abt mi sia.. haha..

toked till almost 2am.. panda eyes..

hmms.. still thinking.. on wat he said..

doubts.. sighh.. was i bad? hais..

hope things will foreva be the same..

no changing please.. yeaps.. thats all..

then thrus.. sighh..

wonder why am i sad..

was alrite at first.. but by recess..

i broke down.. sighh..

was there eating lots of chili..

then i went to bird there, hug her and cry..

i jus dunno why.. tears flow..

i feel much better after crying it all out..

tho not all, but mostly..

i'm back to crying in public.. arghh..

now feels like crying again.. okayys..

nvm.. tok abt other things liao..

went to tp with them after sch..

to help to do something lah..

i'm not supposed to say much i guess..

yeaps.. then went back peirce loh..

surprisingly, they were still there..

went back after a while.. sianned..

then at home.. thinking bout it again..

sighh.. saddened lah.. sob sob..

i wan eunice! i need eunice!

rahh~!! wanna tok to her!!

shes the only one i can reli say things to..

eun, where are u???

wonder if i reli did fall in luv again..

hope i didn't.. i dun wan to..

single is better yea?

hope ppl will understand too..

~~give it up~~.. yeaps.. sorrie..

gtg liao.. byebye..

gonna tok on the phone maybe??

~sighh.. i wanna rant!~

`pricilia*-
8:24 PM

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

heyhey.. yesteday.. monday lah..

got napfa after sch.. haha..

did i get any 'd'? hope not..

i guess not.. haha.. wheez.. smiles.. ((:

no pressure from him this year..

last year paiseh enuf liao.. haha..

okayys.. now todayy..

today, dunno wat happened to mi..

its like, weird.. reli weird..

i was listening in class loh..

at least for dnt and phy the most?

i was listening and highlighting..

i was trying to understand..

so unlike of mi rite? somethings wrong..

wanna get occupied.. dun wanna think..

but, jus cant help thinking.. sighh..

been more than 24 hrs since we last tok..

feeling uneasy? not used to it?

cos have been toking alot lately..

haiz.. i dun even reli noe him ma..

one week frenship maybe? who noes..

maybe wat sherk said was rite?

nono! it cant be.. yeaps.. i wont..

dun tok then dun tok lah.. big deal..

went to j8 lahh.. buy things.. crapps..

sighhh.. dun feel like blogging anymore..

my muscle aches alot.. cant move much..

cant wake up this morning..

didn't wan to go to sch.. but, got test..

yeaps.. and, i cant skipp lessons..

okayys.. gtg liao.. byebye..

~depressed again loh..~

`pricilia*-
11:35 PM

Friday, April 15, 2005

heyhey.. friday nite damn happy loh..

on 14th april rite, tot its gonna be sad..
but no leh! someone remembered..

at least, he guessed it.. awww..

i was like close to tears loh.. haha..

lame rite? i noe.. but reli hapi lahh..

aniwae.. international friendship day..

then foriegn students have booth lah..
then we sell things.. damn fun+tiring..
earn quite a sum too.. haha..

then after that, dm.. sian loh..

have to help them put things into rooms..

for the competition mah.. yeaps..

labelled everything too..

basically, it was very slack lah..

one of the best dm ever.. haha.. =x

then after dm hoh, he was waiting there..

i was like, how arh?? feel so crap..

also cannot ask him go..

then bird and sherk anyhow say liao..

actually only 5 ppl de.. but hoh,

end up with 9.. haha.. doubled.. lol..

went kfc eat.. got scolded lah.. sighh..

then rushed home by taxi with yvon..

she came my house stayy..

cos next day have to wake up early..

haha.. so, stayed lah.. she arh.. aiyoh..

ask her sleep, she dun wan..

but in the end she slept too lah..

she was using com mah.. and mi?

was on the phone.. haha..

yeaps.. we toked.. quite alot..

1 hour plus.. then yar, he said something..

wonder if i should believe anot..

i kept quiet, not knowing wat to say..

but after a while, everything's fine again..

thank god.. it didn't affect anything.. (:

yeaps.. hang up and went to sleep..

he called to check if i'm awake..

i tot he wont wake up so early one loh..

haha.. so furnie.. yvon get ready..

i'm sleepy.. called sherk ask wat to bring..

then she told mi no need so early reach..

thats for com memebers nia.. haha..

so, i got another hour to sleep lah..

but i didn't sleep loh.. after yvon left,

grandma nagged, abt the table!

like wat the hell loh.. damnn..

i jus said i wanna buy table mah..

dun let then dun let lah..

dun have to keep nagging abt how messy my room is that the table will jus add on to it..

arghh! i dun buy lah.. humph~!

then it was time to go liao..

so, went off jus like that..

then she followed loh.. tok somemore..

i wasn't listening.. then reach sch liao..

i see no peirce.. went theresit loh..

called them, they were still in the taxi..

reaching liao.. so, walked around loh..

then saw them, went to put our bags..

then help them prepare abit..

like keep their things lah..

then went to fall in liao..

uni inspection loh..

then change steward all this lah..

they almost dun get their kit loh..

but lucky can get back own sch de..

haha.. yeaps.. then i got nc2 lah..

bedok green de.. leader looked zhai..

but not.. haha.. =x okayy lah..

they quite frenly de..

compared to last year team i took..

never tok to mi one.. yeaps..

then the competition very fast over..

as in, nursing finished but ambulance not..

so, we waited from before lunch, till lunch, then till 6pm! damn bored lahh..

noe wat i did? slept before lunch..

went to eat lunch, then back to sleep..

they woke mi up cos wanna go toilet ma..

then after toilet, i went back to sleep..

haha.. didn't sleep enuf loh..

then finally ask us go hall liao..

then they stall more time loh..

such a waste of time lahh..

then finally it started.. then yar..

i think i was the first to cry ba..

when ambulance results out, i cried liao..

then stop for a while..

then nursing resutls, cried even more..

sighh.. but after that i controlled liao..

i didn't wanna see them cryy..

seeing makes mi cryy too mah..

so, yeaps.. went to change back loh..

waited for them in the canteen..

it was already like 8 by then..

went j8 to eat with them loh..

we went mos burger.. haha..

my frozen strawberries.. lol..

then my food came damn long lah..

when was abt to eat, he came..

out of no where loh.. was shocked?

lol.. i didn't see till bird told mi..

haha.. i cock eye de..

then he left, then came back again..

then left again.. dots lah..

then afetr eating, we went home loh..

shared cab, 5 ppl.. reached home tired..

then nth much le bah..

at nite compete who sleep first loh..

and i lost, cos i sent to wrong ppl..

aiyah, dumb story lah..

okayys.. sun, stayed at home..

tuition a while.. but i'm veyr sleepy..

so, stopped after a while lah..

haha.. then slept somemore..

didn't go out.. yvon came..

heehee.. tml 4 tests leh..

die liao loh..

2 of the books not with mi somemore..

who cares liao.. haha..

kaes.. i gtg liao.. byebye..

~cheer up everyone~

`pricilia*-
4:36 PM

Thursday, April 14, 2005

heyhey.. gotta keep high spirits today~!

blah blah lah hoh.. i'm too tired to blog..

but, have to.. why? cos its 14th april! (:

lalala.. lurfes 14th april 2004!

which is last year lah.. so, yeaps..

it has been one year man.. so fast rite?

this was the day when we played last year..

its unforgetable! heehee.. smiles smiles..

kaes, i feel so bloody crappy..

but, simply lurfes this feeling.. ((:

ate lunch with lao po today..

went to watch soccer after that!

i'm a loyal fan loh.. haha.. yesh i am..

lol.. then i said something toopid..

haha.. i'm feeling damn crazyy..

then sent eun out, and back to sch..

changed, got 2.4km run ma.. rah~!!

haha.. was worried at first..

looking round for jowie!

reli reli hope she came lah..

then the thingy start, no signs of her..

then ran halfway, he's there!

omg!! i was damn relieved lah..

so, she pei mi run loh.. aww..

so nice of her rite? luv her man..

she ran with mi, made mi dun walk..

say 'stroies' to mi.. haha.. timed mi too..

then wan't reli pleased with my timing lah..

as if was 1 min plus away from my target..

cant be blamed lah.. i walked abit..

damn tired loh.. haha..

so, my timing okayy lah.. lalala~!

then went back from bp with bird..

we held hands??!! lol..

ppl at the bus stop looking at us loh..

do we looked like les?? haha..

so tiring lehh.. haha.. siann..

stayyed a while, then went home..

yahh.. tuition, then yah.. slacking now..

grandma coming leh! damn..

die liao lah.. no freedom again..

sighh.. nvm lah.. kaes.. shall go now..

byebye.. toking on the phone! bye!

~will never forget 14th april~

`pricilia*-
10:13 PM

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

heyhey.. didn't blog yesterdayy..

got nth to blog about lahh.. haha..
chinese test was postponed..
then got back wet rice geog test paper..
so bloody happy leh!! ((((:

i've got high marks for ~~once~~! 13/15!!

can u magine that?! pris? got so high?!
i even tot cher put extra 1 in front of the 3..

haha.. omg.. cant believe it lah..

then yeaterday after sch, sian lahh..

did casualty.. lol.. then like that loh..
nth much le lah.. found out wed have pd..
like wat the hell loh.. i cant go out..
i'm supposed to go out with bnco ppl on wed..
which is today lah.. haha.. then i cant go loh..
so sad lahh.. jiu jiu yi qi leh.. also cant go..

nvm.. so yeaps.. too bad loh..

today hurt my thumb while playing volley..
damn painful lah.. blue black liao.. ouch..

so, went for the national x-country pd..

leave early fron class.. one period early..
yeaah.. then lunch and change..
went there by bus.. together with track..

then slacked a lot loh.. reached at abt 1.30,

when the thing only starts at 2.30 loh..

so, very sian lah.. went walk walk..

also nth to see.. so, forget it loh..

we went to report for dutyy..

sat there and played a while..

they say only start running at 4 pm!!

so, slacked even more lahh.. sian..

msging most of the time lah.. haha..

then finally start running.. finally..

at first was fine i guess.. all so strong..

haha.. then got this guy, shuai eih..

think he got stich.. then approach him lah..

then that teacher go attend to him..

so, i stay there zuo bo lahh.. haha..

then reli loh.. got so many shuai ges leh..

here one, there one de.. cant see finish..

lol.. kaes.. i sound so hua ci.. or watever..

then a lot of mosqitoes loh.. wa lao..

alot.. damn lot.. scratch here and there..

aniwae, when going home hoh,

we saw this guy bleeding..it was raining,

then think he slip and fell lah..

then his wound damn big..

maybe one of the biggest wound i saw..

its reli big.. he covers it with his hand..

still can see one loh.. thats how big..

so disgusting,, blood flow like tap..

drip drip drip.. his whole shoe blood..

the floor so many blood.. wanted to stop it,

but its jus too scary.. yeaps..

went back sch loh.. then went home..

so tired todayy.. dunno why.. haha..

wanted to go with them de leh..

but sighh.. regretted? haiz..

nvm lah.. next time go out again loh..

haiz.. miss my chance of playing pool..

sobs.. k lah.. i gtg liao.. byebyee..

`pricilia*-
7:59 PM

Monday, April 11, 2005

no time le no time le~!!

shall make this a quick one..
kaes.. sch sucks.. every lesson is bad..
eng, got scolded for not doing cmpreh..

supposed to meet ms tham after sch..

but i didn't go.. i got ipw lahh..
i told her loh, she ignored mi can?
so, i didn't report to her after sch..
tml i pass up the hw lah.. aiyoh.. big deal..

then chem.. sucks too.. copied nth..

then have to pass up hw after lesson loh..
i didn't do lah.. so stood up..
then got nagged abit.. have to pass up tml..
then maths.. arggghhhh~!!!

i jus cant stand maths lessons lah..

i have not been doing maths hw..

last hw done was on 7th march!

wow! one month plus since i did hw..

i dun have interest is studying..

i dun have the want to learn!

so, call mi lazy or watever..

i jus feel like quiting sch!!

aniwae, went human cave do chinese..

then fu loong and rui heng camee..

dunno they come do wat lah..

ended up teaching mi chinese!! lol..

so furnie.. then went home at 4 plus..

then guess wat i did?

move a bed out of my room~!!

i'm strong eih? hope mum got my hint..

i wan my own room.. yeaps.. i noe i'm bad..

wateverr.. then i slacked at home..

got scolded by 2 ppl for not doing hw liao..

so, i think i have to go do?

arghh.. i dun feel like doing hw!!

sighh.. i have to ting hua rite? yeaps..

kk.. gtg liao.. byebye.. muacks..

good luck for chinese tml everyone! (:

~i wanna quit sch!~

`pricilia*-
9:15 PM

Sunday, April 10, 2005

lalala~!! wheeeez..

today was such a dumb day..
happy birthday sherk..

if u're reading this, i'm telling u that,

your day is so dumb!

haha.. dun be so bad liao lah..

erms.. woke up early..

counted as late lah..

cos woke up only when jie came..
then tuition.. then went bus stop..
meet them to go hq..
then waited till so late..
decided to take taxi.. also no taxi..

waited and waited.. then call taxi..

guess wat? we got on to wrong taxi..!!

haha.. the taxi was on call..

but, its not we call de leh.. wrong liao..

haha.. but took it to hq anyway..

then reached there.. saw bnco ppl..

miss some of them too.. heehee..

going to go out with them soon.. yeaps..

then briefing was boring.. *yawnx*

then tok this tok that one loh..

after the whole thing, dey rushed to see sly..

yvon, bird, shing and wk.. haha..

mi and sherk didn't go.. and hoh..

when we jus stepped out of the hq,

we saw them in the taxi waving at us liao..

so damn furnie leh the scene..

kaes, i noe u guys dun find it funny, nvm..

haha.. went to army market wif sherk to eat..

plus buy some things.. so scarry can..

so many guys there loh.. looking..

then mi and sherk was like, quickly walk..

then beam, bian and roystan was there..

we were like, heng ar.. got protection.. =X

haha.. was asked to go back somemore..

mi and sherk dun want lahh.. sorrie ar..

yeaps.. beach road is that scaryy..

dun go there alone girls.. haha..

then meet up with them loh..

sherk say go bugis de food junction..

in the end, they at suntec loh..

wat the hell loh.. we walked there..

lyna joined us too.. walk and walk..

cannot find suntec.. saw raffles hospital..

went in and lyna ask for directions..

so furnie.. laughing all the way with lyna..

she never tok, i also laugh liao..

think she's irritated by mi liao lah.. haha..

then we walked for so damn long loh..

reli cant find lah.. then finally, we saw it..

but, dunno how to go there..

cant short cut.. got police station.. lol~!!

so, walk even longer distance loh..

then crossed a shopping center..

make out journey longer finding way out..

haha.. then fiannly reached suntec..

go find the food junction there..

found le hoh, they say they at bk..

so, go all the way down to bk there..

then dunno wat fountain de..

then saw them.. i went to eat ice cream..

then after that, walked round the fountain!

can u imagine that?! lol.. i feel so dumb..

we followed the instructions..

raise out hand, make silent wish..

then walk round it 3 times.. haha..

we reli did that leh~!! no one was there..

so paiseh.. after we walk finsih, got ppl..

haha.. lucky we walk finish liao..

so, got out of there loh.. haha..

then wanted to take neos.. went j8 loh..

went there by mrt lah..

then saw this shuai ge in the mrt..

standing at the door there.. lol..

long time since i last look out

for shuai ge leh.. reli..

last time i keep looking loh..

now leh? everytime they all show mi de..

then today, saw that shuai ge.. awww..

white tee.. hair abit spike up.. lol..

he's tanned too.. sweet smile.. haha..

was with a fren with black tee.. haha..

very shuai loh.. miss him liao lah..

haha.. kidding lah.. see a while nia..

then when we going out, so paiseh loh..

dunno wat happen lah.. i went out liao..

dunno who stuck inside.. fat lady blocking..

then the shuai ge and his fren laugh at us..

haha.. so malu leh.. *blush*

kaes.. i'm getting out of hand.. better stop..

then went up take neos..

then sherk and lyna went home..

left 3 of us.. divided neos..

remember pay mi back money ppl!

yeaps.. then went home loh..

yvon came too.. take the sch bag..

she left it at my house.. lol..

then yah.. online till now..

12.32a.m liao.. and hoh, i wana complain ar..

yvon and jere hung up my call!!

lol.. tok halfway one go, another also..

dunno why lah.. i wasn't listening to them..

was doing my own things.. opps*

nvm lah.. have to sleep soon aniwae..

tho i'm not sleepy yet.. but i need rest..

hais.. wasn't thinking abt it whole day..

great achivement yeaa? -gives a pat- ((:

think through it lahh.. till 3 am yesterday..

no point being jealous over stuffs..

small stuffs.. he's right after all..

i mus be more da fang.. yeaps..

he does makes sense.. ((: heehee..

kaes.. this matter is erm.. closed?

lol.. like case closed like that.. haha..

kaes.. sadness is temporary..

learnt to heal my own wounds..

hope it wun be open so often..

if not, it reli cant be healed anymore lah..

yeaps.. gtg now.. i didn't do hw man..

who cares.. i reli never do for so long liao..

i'm such a bad girl yea?? lol..

k lah.. byebye.. sweet dreams..

~that guy in mrt is reli shuai.. trust mi..~

`pricilia*-
11:45 AM

sobs.. i'm useless.. i truly am..

been crying for 2 days in a row..

or should i say 3?

cos its already a new day..

nice red eyes i've got yea?

hais.. things have not been going well..

first is peirce workout..

cried even before the thing..

cried after noeing something abt it..

cried when they announce the results again..

i didn't wan to..

i promised someone not to..

but i did.. again and again..

days since i last blogged.. wanted to..

but, everyday is so dull.. saddening..

sat.. celebrate sherk b'dae..

got lots of things to write..

this entry gonna be lengthy and boring..

so, advise u not to read and waste time..

its not gonna be nice at the ending part..

hais.. okay.. here we go...

i'm supposed to be the one taking the cake..

i woke up late leh! panic as usual..

then blah blah blah lahh..

celebrated.. then went to j8 loh..

sneaked away when they were choosing present..

nice plan eih? yeaps..

then back.. went shop a while..

i want to keep myself occupied..

didn't wan to go home.. be so free..

then mi and bird went to lion's house..

agnes was there too..

watch ghost movie..

till dun wanna go home lah..

rushed home by taxi..

changed then out again..

sorry guys, i was late..

so, went to eat..

crapped quite alot.. was happy i guess..

didn't think of anything..

tot of it for a while tho..

but soon back in e conversation wif dem..

so, it wasn't that bad then..

put prezzie into her bag when she wasn't there..

when she carry her bag, it was heavyy..

then when she open it, we sang b'dae song..

yeaps.. took neos too..

dunno who my say my smile was so fake..

i didn't realise that till i reli look at it..

hais.. pretending got limits de..

hmms.. forget wat i've said..

then took taxi home..

shared with sm, ren, yvon..

then reached home liao leh..

went online.. 11 plus le loh..

then saw lao po.. toked to her..

complained bout some stuffs..

i didn't wan to think abt it de..

but, i jus cant dun tell her loh..

so, i did.. then speak of the devil yea??

he came.. i was like.. okayy.. i wanna go..

then i msged sherk happy birthday..

she said i was first, then she made a mistake..

its yvon first.. i was late by 2 secs..

like wat the hell loh.. nvm lah.. 2 secs..

then went to bathe.. midnite liao..

then stayed in the bathroom quite a while..

was in there thinking.. have to stay calm..

then came out when i was ready lah..

at least, i tot i was..

then yvon called & toked bout the 2 secs..

then she hang up cos of i dunno wat lah..

yah.. thats all ba.. can stop reading liao..

others is not nice to read anymore.. )):

~~then she called back a while after that..~~

~~she was like, "wat are u doing?!"~~

~~told her crying loh.. yahh..~~

~~so, toked too lahh..~~

~~she list out so many positive stuffs to mi..~~

~~keep telling mi think in another way..~~

~~but how lah? imagine for urself..~~

~~i dun even now why i cried..~~

~~i'm in no position to be jealous..~~

~~i have no rights to loh..~~

~~jus cant help it ma..~~

~~also not first time.. not surprising..~~

~~sighh.. mus kick this bad habit away..~~

~~i'm jus no one.. reli no one..~~

~~so, why do i even care?~~

~~why do i give a damn bout it?!~~

~~pretending is reli tough..~~

~~i dun wish to spoil the mood..~~

~~eevryone was happy.. i was happy..~~

~~i reli was laughing my heart out..~~

~~but, wat if i'm not occupied anymore?~~

~~the thoughts came back..~~

~~everything came back to mi again..~~

~~guilty for myself? still regretting?~~

~~wat crap am i toking rigth now?~~

~~i cry, i'm sad, i'm hurt or watever,~~

~~will anyone care? there wont..~~

~~i tell u, there wont! how i wish there is..~~

~~wishing is all that i can do..~~

~~its always these few things.. wont change..~~

~~you think i wan to be like this?~~

~~can feelings be controlled?~~

~~if its so easy, tell mi lah.. teach mi how..~~

~~i reli wanna learn.. serious..~~

~~i reli feel so dumb at times..~~

~~i'm making myself hate myself..~~

~~for things i've been doing..~~

~~i feel so stupid behaving this way..~~

~~i dun wan to dwell on it anymore..~~

~~i wan to forget everything! reli wan to..~~

~~i'm not related to u anymore..~~

~~shouldn't be like this wat.. sighh..~~

~~felt much much better after toking to u..~~

~~thx for being understanding..~~

~~wat to do now?~~

~~i cant possibly be jealous all my life..~~

~~okayys.. shall try very hard not to..~~

~~pris wont get jealous anymore..~~

promised made on 10th april 2:08am
done.. conitnue pretending ba..
then nth will happen liao..
smile and be happy.. dun show sadness..
yeaps.. thats wat i will do ba..
i have to do it anyway..

4 more days.. to a memorable day last year..

14th april 2004.. ((:

kk.. stop thinking.. think its time for mi to sleep liao rite?

tml still have to wake up early for tuition..

i sure cant wake up.. wanna bet?

i confirm win liao.. haha..

okayys.. i'm starting to be lame again..

i'm okay rite? *cross fingers*

pray hard it wont affect mi anymore tml..

kaes.. shall go sleep liao loh..

2:13am liao.. so fast lehh..

nitex everyone.. sweets dreams..

pris is joining in ur dreams now..

heehee.. buaiz..

~things not the way i think it was~

`pricilia*-
12:38 AM

Sunday, April 03, 2005

heyhey.. wed first..
dnt course cancelled..went to eat pizza after sch..
wanted to watch soccer.. but, oh well..
went for pizza instead..no money, but found some money..
supposed to top up my ez-link card..
used it for pizza instead..
then after eating we sian ma..
think of suitable numbers for soccer gang..
for ourselves too.. ((:
then we give ourslef flowers, cartoons chac..
blah blah blah lahh.. haha...
then dunno who say call them and ask..
ask which flowers they wanna choose..
then i cant call out.. no other hp..
so, sms them loh.. haha...
waited for reply..
one by one came lahh.. so fun!
haha.. collected the votes..
lol.. each flowers represent one ger..
yeaps.. we are jus bored and being lamee..

then yvon came my house..
wanting to use com and obviously blog..
haha.. but so sad lah..
think blogger was down.. so wed i didn't blog too..
yeaps.. which lead to more days of not blogging..
haha.. then stayed till quite late lah..
went home at around 8 plus if i'm not wrong..
then walked to 7-11.. buy things loh..
to get kitty.. haha.. very very lame loh..
looking for things to buy, jus to make 5 bucks..
then my packet of kitty got 2 magnets inside..
haha.. gave one to yvon..
got extra for those too.. yeaps..
then she waited for taxi, i went home..
haha.. didn't pei her.. pai seh worx..

then thrus.. rushed through phy..
damn idiotic one leh..
made us stay back do finish..
was very late for pw..
lucky lao po was there.. ((:
then changed the wave.. more ppl join..
scared they wouldn't be able to catch up..
sighh.. do ur best evryone..

to anione there behind the curtains;-
we didn't request.. its i wan to see..
see u guys openly.. is it a crime?
ur ppl also got see us openly one loh..
u might be telling mi its different..
cos u guys are behind the curtains..
but please loh, have to show it aniwae wat..
we do it openly, u guys can choose not to see too..
not as if we wan to let u see rite..
even though we dun hide behind anything,
we could jus chase u guys back behind the curtains..
since u have the rights, we too yea?
but we didn't do anything.. no point loh..
hais.. u guys will think all this are craps..
no offence.. jus stating facts..

fridayy.. april's fool dayy..
didn't have the april's fool mood..
yah.. dm.. as usual..
sec 3 is always the most boring lot..
did footdrill..reli very sian one loh..

then we got chit chat session with aoic..

haha.. very funny.. but a while nia..

then have to fall back in loh..

sickening.. haha.. then finally..

changed out.. wore sch uni..

then while waiting for the rest,

went to play badminton with lao po..

they are having sc camp.. very lame one..

15h nia.. from evening, till next morning..

dun feel like leaving the sch one loh..

but, sighh.. have to.. haha.. kaes..

went to eat at kfc.. fattening again..

haha.. then our sitting arrangement very funny..

in front of ppl eating shrooms,

are ppl eating chicken.. so tempting..

haha.. then went home by taxi..

tired, bag heavy, late..

see, very worth it de.. 3 reasons..

haha.. then nth much le loh..

sat.. which is yesterday..

went to the zone 7 competition at HQ..

went earlier to eat breakfast..

bought the frozen strawberries..

damn nice lehh.. cant get enuf..

haha.. then went hq by taxi loh..

then see see look look..

like the way one of their team turning..

very cool leh.. like dancing..

so nice.. very the cool worx..

have been trying to do that, but cant..

haha.. then went to bk eat..

ms tan treated us abit.. thx ms tan..

then went home loh..

wanted to go somebody house de..

but, cant decide who.. at the roadside..

then time to go home liao.. lol..

then lao pa never pei mi walk..

ask him pei mi one bus stop nia loh..

he also dun wan.. so bad de..

so, walked through bishan park alone..

~~the route he sometimes used to pei mi walk after sch last time..~~

while walking, see so many couples loh..

make mi think of him loh.. idiot..

then i was like, walking faster loh..

was so relieved when i walk finish liao..

then came online, so depressing..

wun walk dat route alone next time..

sighh.. nvm.. will soon forget abt that..

then todayy, sian one loh..

woke up when jie called.. yawn..

then tuition lahh.. then stayyed at home..

wanted to watch movie with jie de..

then she in the end cannot..

nvm loh.. next week ba.. sian..

now not doing anything.. very bored lehh..

got hw, i never do..

forget have to do wat..

cant be bothered to ask aniwae..

haha.. so, yeaps.. sian loh..

been eating a lot the whole dayy..

nvm lah.. gtg lah..

if not, u guys will be bored reading..

rite? i noe, jus admit.. haha.. lame..

kaes.. byebye.. muacks..

~i dun care, i wan you~

`pricilia*-
4:17 PM

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